on bebés and boobies

i imagine a letter in the style of "дорогая редакция"*: my long-term boyfriend said he was indifferent to whether we have babies or not and two days later i caught him reading "no knickers at work" porn story online. should i be concerned or am i overacting?

and the warm soft voice says: neah, totalmente overacting chiquita. he didn't say he does not want babies - he just never thought of them. he can be trained and made to want them. believe you me, he will be running after you full of energetic sperm wanting desperately to make a baby with you if you play it right. and you have that power, bonita, you can make it happen! what guy can possibly not want to leave his genealogical mark on humanity? he is just being a guy, being scared. remember he quoted from “Juno”: “women love their babies from the date they get pregnant, men love start to love them from the day they are born” or similar… ahh, how cute!

and a voice another voice that leaves an unpleasant metallic taste in the mouth says: being a mother, having a child is one of the top three things you want in life. can you really trust someone who does not wish, does not dream of having a child with you? can you trust someone who does is indifferent to something you value so much?

and the warm voice whispers sounding like an old traditional woman who knows the truth about men: so he looks at naked tits and reads xxx-stories, big deal, what man does not?! it is normalidad, really. you are very open with each other and enjoy occasionally telling each other dirty sexual fantasies. you know he reads porn sometimes, he does not hide it - and come on, like you've never read any yourself!

and the metallic tasting voice replies - no no no no, uno momento! telling each other about fantasies - that's all good. sitting near you on sunday afternoon and reading porn stories is quite different. why is he looking for this excitement online? are you satisfying him completely and fully in the bedroom? are you sure? yes, not as young as before, are you? don't put as much effort in looking yummy and chocolaty and velvety, do we? and yes, you have read erotica stories, no denying - but who sent you those in the first place? have you ever actively searched for them yourself? no? see what i mean... i don’t want to be the one to tell you a few months down the line “i told you so…”
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PS: "дорогая редакция"* = "dear editor"